Tag: thoughts
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Human
For so long now I’ve been trying to discern and separate the ‘human’ thought from the biological instinct, constantly taking myself apart like some kind of machine, trying to find schematics that don’t exist. Over the course of the past couple of weeks, somehow I realized the “animal” is not separate from the human; our […]
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Ancient and primitive.
Pure, involuntary passions: rage, arousal, fear. Pre-neolithic. Ancient and primitive. Reduce the concept of a person to its most basic elements. Bring them to the point of raw expression. Boil a person down to nothing. Vivisected. Naked, exposed. Remove the husk; strip away the excess, the humanity, and what is left? This is something I’ve […]
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I’m a recovering perfectionist.
The Issue So much of my life has been defined by an ill-defined concept, simply an innate desire, an uncontemplated need. Suffocating me. Eating me alive like a parasite. The need to be perfect. The inevitable downfall. The self-flagellation. Rinse and repeat. It made sense to me. I believed that the constant pain of Being […]
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Exorcism Journaling
What is meant by “exorcism journaling”? A short while ago, I got into the habit of keeping a journal of sorts. Instead of writing reflections and thoughts coherently, I simply write emotional vomit; that is, I write all my negative emotions and discontentment in a near-but-not-quite stream-of-consciousness manner. It’s not meant to be well-phrased, thought-out, […]
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